Actually, I woke up at 3am in my husbands arms. This is very unusual as we are not cuddles in bed. We like our space. I heard him asking me if I was scared. I didn't answer right away because I only had a vague memory of a bad dream. He said I was screaming in a desperate way.
My mind when to the book I've been reading where it talks about people, even Christians, who start speaking in a strange way and don't remember it because it is a demon. In all those analogies, the person couldn't speak the name of Christ. And I could. I asked my husband to pray with me again. Then, I recited Isaiah 41:10 until I had calmed down.
Do not fear, for I am with you. Do not be afraid, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and give you help, and uphold with with My righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10
I feel more pressure to finish the book. But, I know that nothing has changed and that I cannot finish it on my own. My sister-in-law emailed back. She is praying. I emailed her back again and told her about last night. I also told her that I would like to finish the book with her if I don't get a chance to do so sooner.
I also emailed my counselor. She emailed back a prayer and mentioned something about giving my doctor wisdom. I don't have any intention of telling him about this. I think it is about the book, not the meds, and I have no desire to be on anxiety medication again! I will explain that to her, because I also don't have any intention of deceiving her in any way, since God (who did all the work) used her a lot.
I am a girl who belongs to God. I got held up at gun point a year and a half ago. Because of that I have had the opportunity to work through all my anxiety, related to that and unrelated. I am more of a mess now, in a lot of ways, but I am also healthier than I've ever been. I've worked through the boat load, and I'm getting through the leftover pieces now. God is good. No book is going to put me back where I was! God may allow me to go through this, but because I am resting my faith in Christ, I'm going to get through it.
I just read an article today about how "you" have to be careful about what you put on social networks because people who hire now check them. I've been thinking about that in relation to my blog. I haven't finished thinking.
My mind when to the book I've been reading where it talks about people, even Christians, who start speaking in a strange way and don't remember it because it is a demon. In all those analogies, the person couldn't speak the name of Christ. And I could. I asked my husband to pray with me again. Then, I recited Isaiah 41:10 until I had calmed down.
Do not fear, for I am with you. Do not be afraid, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and give you help, and uphold with with My righteous right hand. Isaiah 41:10
I feel more pressure to finish the book. But, I know that nothing has changed and that I cannot finish it on my own. My sister-in-law emailed back. She is praying. I emailed her back again and told her about last night. I also told her that I would like to finish the book with her if I don't get a chance to do so sooner.
I also emailed my counselor. She emailed back a prayer and mentioned something about giving my doctor wisdom. I don't have any intention of telling him about this. I think it is about the book, not the meds, and I have no desire to be on anxiety medication again! I will explain that to her, because I also don't have any intention of deceiving her in any way, since God (who did all the work) used her a lot.
I am a girl who belongs to God. I got held up at gun point a year and a half ago. Because of that I have had the opportunity to work through all my anxiety, related to that and unrelated. I am more of a mess now, in a lot of ways, but I am also healthier than I've ever been. I've worked through the boat load, and I'm getting through the leftover pieces now. God is good. No book is going to put me back where I was! God may allow me to go through this, but because I am resting my faith in Christ, I'm going to get through it.
I just read an article today about how "you" have to be careful about what you put on social networks because people who hire now check them. I've been thinking about that in relation to my blog. I haven't finished thinking.
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