I am pretty dang proud of myself today. I am the type of person who likes to fix things right away. More than a few people know that. If I'm afraid something is wrong, I may call about three times (seven if you are my husband). But today, I only called twice.
I had a misunderstanding with my friend. A couple of my girl friends and I went to see a movie... and there was a word that I hated! A phrase actually. "You deserve to be happy." On the drive back for them to drop me at my place, I had a fit about how American's alway think they "deserve" to be happy. Only, my friends had no idea what exactly I was talking about... since they aren't American.
Then when we got back to my place, one friend wanted to borrow a movie. As she was picking one out, the dog starting hoeling because we left him in the kitchen. My husband is walking to the back rooms and says something to me... that of course I didn't hear... "What, honey... what? What?" "I'm not going to take care of the dog!"
Oops. My friends left feeling awkward. Not only a half conversation left in the lurch, but it sounded like my husband was mad at me. Awkward...
Guess what? My husband, not mad. Guess what? I wasn't as angry at the American culture as it came off. Still want to finish that conversation, friend...
But the point... I wanted to fix things right away. And my wonderful husband, being so wonderful, offered to call my friend and at least tell her he wasn't mad at me (he is so sweet). But, we called twice and no answer. But, God is good. I don't have to fix things right away. I will conquer my anxiety and say no to my self (who wants all my ducks to be in a row right away). Instead, I will trust my friendship with my wonderful friends. Of course, I did still have the urge to blog about it... I guess I still have a ways to go.
But, HA Anxiety! You do not have the power over me you used to, and I will continue to say No to you. HA.
I'm so glad I don't have a following. It feels good to express myself knowing that most likely, these little embarrassing things I put in here will be soon forgotten. :-) But for some reason, it is a strange/good therapy to publish it.
I had a misunderstanding with my friend. A couple of my girl friends and I went to see a movie... and there was a word that I hated! A phrase actually. "You deserve to be happy." On the drive back for them to drop me at my place, I had a fit about how American's alway think they "deserve" to be happy. Only, my friends had no idea what exactly I was talking about... since they aren't American.
Then when we got back to my place, one friend wanted to borrow a movie. As she was picking one out, the dog starting hoeling because we left him in the kitchen. My husband is walking to the back rooms and says something to me... that of course I didn't hear... "What, honey... what? What?" "I'm not going to take care of the dog!"
Oops. My friends left feeling awkward. Not only a half conversation left in the lurch, but it sounded like my husband was mad at me. Awkward...
Guess what? My husband, not mad. Guess what? I wasn't as angry at the American culture as it came off. Still want to finish that conversation, friend...
But the point... I wanted to fix things right away. And my wonderful husband, being so wonderful, offered to call my friend and at least tell her he wasn't mad at me (he is so sweet). But, we called twice and no answer. But, God is good. I don't have to fix things right away. I will conquer my anxiety and say no to my self (who wants all my ducks to be in a row right away). Instead, I will trust my friendship with my wonderful friends. Of course, I did still have the urge to blog about it... I guess I still have a ways to go.
But, HA Anxiety! You do not have the power over me you used to, and I will continue to say No to you. HA.
I'm so glad I don't have a following. It feels good to express myself knowing that most likely, these little embarrassing things I put in here will be soon forgotten. :-) But for some reason, it is a strange/good therapy to publish it.
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