---All of this is really true in my world, but it is meant to make you laugh, not feel sorry for me---
Before I got pregnant, I truly thought I would not get sick. I figured I'd have a good attitude about pregnancy and it would be fun, just like it is in the movies. I have no sisters, a few close friends who have had babies, but they don't live near me. A friend who lives near me had a baby, but she didn't seem too bad. My pregnancy will be a breeze. Why not?
When I started getting tired, I thought, "Whew, this is okay. I just have to take it easy." When I started getting nauseated in the car, I thought, "Okay, but this won't last long." When I started not having an appetite, well, that was uncomfortable. Have you ever been hungry, but all food sounded, smelled, and looked disgusting. Has that ever lasted for TWO months? I have found hunger with aversion to food is one of the most uncomfortable things to experience for an extended period of MONTHS.
I went out to lunch with friends today. It was the first time looking at a menu didn't make me feel nauseous. Unfortunately for me that doesn't mean the season of looking at a menu and feeling sick is over. I am nearly four months pregnant. Past the First Trimester mark, and I have felt sick since the beginning of August with the exception of a total of about two weeks worth of days...
One blessing, I have not thrown up. Though I've heard that throwing up can make you feel better, I can't stand throwing up, and avoid it when possible. I still remember the last time... I got food poisoning in Syria while I was on a study abroad program. I threw up so many times that our doctor said he could give me a shot. I rolled up my sleeve, then he told me the bad news... it wasn't going to be a shot in the arm... Very embarrassing. I don't know if I told anyone but my husband about that.
On the eating thing. I have to eat anyway, of course, despite how I feel. So, I turn on the fan in the kitchen or my husband graciously makes me dinner or the third option... I just go in the kitchen, open the refrigerator and pull something out. I try not to look at it too much, warm it up (if I have to), but only a little. The less I warm it up, the less it smells like food. Then I eat it as fast as I can, which is usually extremely slow as for some reason I have found it absolutely impossible to eat fast for the past few months. I know it's better if I don't anyway, but when the food makes me feel sick, I would RATHER eat it fast!
And there are other things. The books are telling me to talk to my baby. I have found it difficult to talk to my baby since baby G is making me sick. I might try the alternative for now, reading to my baby. We do watch a lot of TV together. he he he. I hope it's a girl, because we've been watching a lot of Gilmore Girls.
I am excited to be a mom. I am a mom already really, how much more of a mom could I be! I have resigned myself to being sick for the duration of the pregnancy, but I'm going to try daily to have a good attitude. This has been difficult, and I haven't done the best job, but I know at least I will be able to laugh at much of the nuances when the pregnancy is done.
I like to laugh. I think it is one of my favorite things in the world.
